"X" topic

Do you ever have an "X" topic in your conversations? "X" topic means a topic which should not be brought up. It would probably lead to awkward moments or getting nowhere around that topic. Or maybe something that you will regret after saying?

Today, I did it. The "X" topic for me is the proposal. I'm not sure why and I just poured out how I really felt with proposal while knowing we are gonna try for bto in Nov. Maybe it's really about how I look at it. What really shocked or rather comforted me was his words, which moved me. Knowing that I would lead myself to wilderness thoughts, he kept reassuring that "he's ready" and "can you dont think in such a manner?" to get me back to reality. 

知足常乐, I'm really blessed to have him.

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